Build those walls only to tear them down time and time again.
Mountains to climb, rivers to cross, armies to crush.
These walls hide me. They protect me. They hinder me.
God I scream. Loud, long, deep.
Still these walls silence me.
I'm an empty shell of doubts and insecurites.
A flooded confusion of misery and lostness.
Who is that girl? What makes her tick?
Questions I do not know. Queries that haunt me.
God how I pray to break these chains.
Timid, shy, broken.
I walk around with my head bow.
My eyes will never meet yours.
A voice that shakes.
Such awkwardness surrounds me.
Sometimes I wish I could rip my skin off.
Maybe then I could be free.
Perhaps then I could drop these walls.
Break these chains.
Become that confident girl.
It is all I can do to silence these screams.
To not cut this heart out.
Continue to fight for more.
God how I despise who I am.
I'm mousy. Afraid.
You say hi so easily.
I only nod my head.
My tongue is useless.
I am a broken girl.