Dear god,

Am I messing up?

Holding on to tight?

Not bending enough?

Not letting it all go?

 

I have all these questions,

all this doubt.

There is so many ways,

to go wrong, 

and I think that,

I've found them all.

 

I'm so tired,

of battles,

and guilt.

I want to be held,

protected from myself.

 

I want to know,

that I'm not messing it up,

screwing it all up.

God I'm tired,

I can't think straight.

 

I want to show you love,

be beautiful for you,

be everything you ever dreamed,

be the last.

 

I don't want to dissapoint,

to take the light out of your eyes,

to be the reason you see me less,

to see you leave.

 

God I'm messed up,

unable to think straight,

I don't know the path,

that leads us to that wonderful place.

 

Dear god, I am tired today.

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Comments (4)

  1. depressedgirl

    I am tired today, as well. I just want you to know God is there caring and watching over you. He loves you. None of us are perfect, least of all me, but we must keep on going and trying. He will help up us. He will help you. If you want to talk I am here.

    July 15, 2017
  2. Helikaon

    Sleep means nothing, when it’s your heart and soul that is tired.

    July 16, 2017
  3. Helikaon

    Today, I feel lost …but that is nothing new.

    July 16, 2017
  4. painyagami

    You are tired because you are not free…and by free i don’t mean free from responsibilities or anything by free i mean being unburdened…

    July 28, 2017